23 April 44
I don't know what to say - am so disgusted with myself that I am sick to my stomach just thinking how rotten I am.
Last night I went to town with the fellows + a bunch us all lost our necks in a gambling house - the pity of it was we were all ahead a couple of times - we thought we were hot stuff yeah. I lost fifty dollars - yes I violated your love + trust in me. Honey, a dirtier, lower, [illegible] fool never lived, than the guy you married. I guess you know why I wanted to win. Had fools vision of baby money + presents for you
You won't believe me, when I say that I have really learned my lesson now + I vow that I'll never gamble again, why should you, I said that before? But if you should find it in your heart to believe me - I promise. Never again.